Embracing Self - Music as a healing tool

Music is a very powerful tool in a healing process. But does it need to be a specific type of music? Strings, piano....437 MHZ, mantra's....??? .In today's blog I will share a piece of music that healed my heart. You might be surprised to find out what it was!

I believe illness is actually a healing process. I have to become whole again. (note: whole is not always the same as cured!!) So, part of my healing protocol is adressing my PTSD. (traumas). I do that with EMDR.
I must say, this technique has improved! Today was my second time with the modern approach (if you want to know more about EMDR just let me know, I will tell you  more about it later) and just like the session 3 weeks ago, my whole body joined in. It's a total release, with lots of trembling, tears, sobs, howling and snot everywhere, hahaha. 😭😂 But it feels soooo good to get it out of your system!!

But then it happened: on my way back in the taxi, the radio played Guns n Roses' November Rain. Uh oh... That triggered me. Not my traumas (I just worked on that), but the grief. The grief for a "lost childhood" (which ofcourse is never really lost). The grief of half a life spent in stress, coping strategies, not being true to my Self... And not being able to fully, totally embrace life. And embrace me, myself and I...

So here I was, in the taxi and I started crying! Just like that. At first I tried to hide it. But then I realized, I have hidden my pain long enough. And now I'm letting go of the pain, as a part of the past... I won't have to suffer from those old wounds anymore, I want to be able to be honest to myself. To not have to hide who I am and what moves me. Just be f* ing human! So... I just let my tears fall down. It was like I was leaking 😂 the driver looked at me, but didn't say anything about it. And that was great. I could just be in the moment, witness my body getting rid of old sh.... And when I got out of the car, I decided to dig up my old GNR CD and play this solo as loud as I could on my speakers. YESS!!!

Feeling the bass in my stomach, the guitar solo piercing my eardrums, the lyrics repeating over and over again... (don't you think that you need somebody, don't you think that you need someone, everybody needs somebody... You're not the only one, you're not the only one)... Feeling in total connection with the adolescent inside me...bowling my eyes out.... I felt every bit of old pain leave my body. Wow, now that's therapy!!! 😃

So... Now I will spend the next hours and days recuperating from this event. But man! Does that make you feel good!!!

Music is the best therapy tool there is... For sure.

So... For the rocklovers among you : here's my therapy tool. Go ahead: crank it up and let yourself go!

Mama Sanna 

Music: Guitar Solo in November Rain

Credits: Guns 'n Roses  from the album: Use Your Illusion II

recipe: powerboost!

Green smoothie with the taste of autumn...

Autumn has really begun…This is the time of year when all of us are confronted with darkness. Darkness around us (grey clouds, rain, heavy winds, less hours of sunlight) often triggers the feelings of gloom and darkness inside us. Our body also responds to this change of energy: we get a cold or catch a case of the flue. This is all part of this time of the year: nature invites us to go “inside”: inside our houses, and inside ourselves….

In the Christian tradition, this time of the year is being accompanied by the Archangel St. Michael. He slayed the dragon (devil) and banned him out of Heaven. A beautiful metaphor for what’s going on inside of us: to find our inner balance (heaven) we sometimes have to slay a dragon (or two…or ten ;) ). When nature forces us to go inside, we are bound to come across some of our dragons: hidden way deep inside. They have been asleep all summer long, but now they pop up and challenge us to look them straight in their faces! What do you want to do about it?

Look at it, as an open invitation. You are the one who decides to clean up your old pain, anger or grief, or to leave it and sweep it under the carpet! Becoming a conscious, balanced person, involves taking responsibility and making choices on a conscious level. You are free to choose, but do decide!

These old pains can hamper you in your way to inner balance. And an imbalance keeps you from

St. Michael and the dragon
(photo: internet, source unknown)

being whole and healthy. Acknowledging that these old pains are there, to respect your feelings about them can already help to restore balance. Dragons that are not acknowledged will keep popping up when you least want them to. When you decide to face them, whether you clean them up or want to keep them, the balance is already so much better. If you do want to keep these old grudges, fears, pains or grievances, make sure you put them somewhere safe. That is: make a conscious choice to keep them and find a place for them in you heart or memories. And if you do decide to get rid of them, find help if you can not face these emotions or memories alone. You are not alone out there! Every person has their own battles to fight, their dragons to slay. There’s nothing to be embarrassed about.

For all of you, fighting spiritual and physical dragons, here’s a wonderful green smoothie that will boost up your immune-system and spirit. In loving honour of St. Michael…

Cheers!

Ingredients:

4 bananas

1 handful of red berries

½ handful of blue berries

1 figue

2 small apples or 1 bigger apple, preferably sour tasting

1 ripe pear (peeled)

½ avocado

½ handful of Goji berries, soaked overnight in spring water

dash of lemon juice

Goji berry water (where they soaked in) to taste

Cinnamon to taste (I used ½ tsp)

1 tablet of chlorella

Vitamin C, eq. 1500 mg in tablet or powder

½ TSP Mesquite

1 handful of spinach

1 handful of rapunzel/lamb’s lettuce

1 leave of chard

Blend really well. This will fix you 1 litre of goodness. I thrive on it the whole morning, but you can also share, of course! The taste is sweet and sour, just like this time of the year: the sourness of facing your demons, followed by the sweet aftertaste of victory when you found your inner balance. Namasté!

Sanna